Me, Me, Me

i am: stronger than I give myself credit for
i think: that money solves a lot of problems, but it certainly causes a lot too
i know: that I would do anything for Mason
i want: to help people (I'm planning to start volunteer work soon), to be happy, to be out of debt
i have: really good hearing, cute feet, the best family, really great friends, B-neg blood, high cholesterol, insomnia, many issues that I don't know how to solve
i wish: that I had an unlimited budget to do nice things for others, that I had a better memory, to be a better wife, to have more energy
i hate: funerals and everything that goes along with them (hearses, caskets, death, plots), except flowers. The flowers are the only uplifting thing to me. I also hate when people express negative comments/feelings against groups of people as a whole (races, homosexuals, religious figures, politicians, etc.) I don't want to hear it...EVER!, pranks/teasing, scary stories, bickering, the sound of an alarm clock beeping
i fear: grasshoppers (and most other bugs), drowning, the dark (I mean pitch black)
i feel: like a Dr. Pepper, but it's 1 o'clock in the morning
i smell: clean
i crave: my mom's cooking, white chocolate covered strawberries, hot chocolate, CharRee's pumpkin choc. chip cookies, sugar cookies from the Mini Bazaar, Lime Rickeys, cheese, Nilla Wafers, and of course, Dr. Pepper
i search: for the rest of the M&Ms bedding set that I have a pillow and two pillow cases to
i love: my family, amazing photography, games, reminiscing, laughing, napping, flowers, being in my jammies, friends, and the list could go on and on
i wonder: when I will feel like I'm not in limbo
i regret: dating a married guy when I was young and stupid (for those of you who didn't know that, please take a moment to pick your jaw up off the floor)
i care: about my family more than anything in this world
i always: try to be optimistic... I REALLY DO! (It's hard for me though)
i believe: strongly in my religion, that things happen for a reason
i dance: That would be a lie. I don't dance. I hate to dance.
i sing: in the car and sometimes to Mason.
i like: greeting cards, happy endings, word searches, Gwyneth Paltrow, the color Red, little notes from loved ones, soft fabrics, king size beds, jewelry
i don’t always: spend money wisely. I shop when I'm upset, but I usually take most of it back.
i fight: unfairly. I hate for people to see me hurting, so I'm mean instead. I'm working on being better.
i write: in Mason's journal as often as possible. I miss writing in my own, but I don't find as many things to write about now that I'm married.
i lose: sleep over worrying, every time I play Trivial Pursuit or Clue
i win: almost all of the puzzles before the contestants on Wheel of Fortune when I watch it
i never: feel like I get enough sleep, forget to pay my tithing
i miss: my Grandma Reynolds and my Grandpa Berrett, Venice
i listen: to Mason jabber on all night long and I absolutely love the sound of his voice (I'm resisting going in there right now to cuddle him), RENT, Rob Thomas/Matchbox Twenty, Alanis, Sarah, Dimitri Martin
i can usually be found: at home or at my parent's house.
i am scared: of my loved ones dying or getting seriously injured, of speaking in public, being alone outside at night
i need: stability, to start taking better care of myself, to start going back to church (even if it is by myself)
i dislike: housework. I've realized that I generally do deep cleaning when I'm frustrated. Even on days when I'm not having any particular emotion, I still get a knot in my stomach and scrub almost white knuckled, wearing a bra (I know too much info.)
i prefer: texting or emailing over talking on the phone (except with my family), to be called by nicknames, my Gatorade warm, to dip my steak in ranch dressing
i won't eat/drink: anything dyed blue (that includes M&Ms!), sushi and most all fish, broccoli, ham, peppers, swiss cheese, alcohol, pineapple, coffee, Coke, Bratwurst
i get anxious: in large crowds, when I'm a passenger in a car, when I travel
i am fascinated by: fire, creativity in music, art, poetry, etc. I have no talent in these things, save photography, and I'm always so envious of others
i am a little embarrassed to admit: I watch The Girls Next Door, if I laugh too hard I will pee my pants, I used to really enjoy 'stalking' people (in high school, it's harmless, right?), I am slightly OCD about tweezing my eyebrows, I never wash off my makeup or brush my teeth before bed
i am happy about: how blessed I am in life. I have so much.